Haiti Materialism and

Last post was the day before the Haiti earthquake over a month ago.
For about a week I was in an odd funk.
I was not depressed but very insular.  Almost suspended.

I put out some feelers to volunteer as a pharmacist in Haiti but nothing took.
No work at home either.

That morphed into some weeks of hyper materialism particularly related to emergency preparedness and  self defense.  I got online and shopped for things I was curious about for years.  I spent more time and money in a couple weeks than I did all last year.

Everything tactical.  Black.  A windproof black "tacti-cool" fleece with hood and 11 pockets for concealment.  Tactical compression T-shirt with pocket for I-pod/handgun.  Tactical black blindingly bright flashlight.  A tactical lightweight massage table and carry cover...tactical black of course.

A mentor pharmacist with a secret government past calls this kind of emergency preparedness a disease.
I cannot ague.  Balance is everything.  And yet the Haiti event set off some primal fears and obligations.

I turned to a spiritual advisor who introduced me to the Archangel Michael.  A post in itself I began processing a vast past.  Looking at roles and goals to protect self, family, community and Humanity in disaster.

Interestingly AA Michael was depicted in the recent horror film LEGION.  I went to see it and also The Book of Eli.  I wrote a bit on the role of faith as a source of personal strength but also as a moral blindfold and mass control tool.  AA Michael is the patron saint of the police and the warrior. In the Tarantiono-esque film Legion he "falls" from God and is insubordinate in order to save humanity to be reunited later.
Memes of honor and the compassionate warrior and the masculine role swirled dark.  I thought about the difference between Wovoka and Geronimo.  Contemporaries regarded in degrees as Holy men and warriors.  The decendents of the Sioux killed in the Dakota's for doing Wovoka's Ghost Dance  live in worse circumstance today than the Apache in Northern Arizona.  Was it  better to be a flat out warrior than a spiritual dancer?  Geronimo's skull was supposedly taken by Skull and Bones (Yale Fraternity of Kerry and Bush).  Wovoka died working in a carnival.


Ambivalent about posting dark introspection with violent and religious themes I stopped writing.
I am back.